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"...For truly, I say to you if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you." -Matthew 17:20
It's not every day I say, "I'm finished." No, not every day.
Two June's ago I did just that. I left a career I never wanted and started focusing on what I knew I could do and be who I knew I was meant to be. I not only left a career behind, but I left some volunteer positions as well to focus on me and my family. Mainly me if I am going to be completely honest here.
Is that selfish? Some would say it is. Dropping your job, dropping your income to pursue your dream. Hmmm...but to me it wasn't. It was more than that. I was slowly slipping away and my soul was not fulfilled. I had to make a move before I lost me in the shuffle of day to day. I knew it was important.
I don't miss going to the movies, taking expensive vacations and buying things I don't need. It's interesting how much you really consider needing when you change your perspective of what is really important in life isn't it?
So, in this I have also continued to seek out help for my past demons. To improve my thoughts and self-esteem so that I could go forward. Not really leaving those hurtful things and trauma behind, but truly finding a shelf to put them without the pain. I own those now. They are no longer controlling me and my emotions. I continue to receive help to this day and go forward.
I began working on my art, my techniques, my strengths in fibers and drawing. Exploring things I loved like knitting, tatting lace and weaving. Creating things for sale, participating in art fairs and a fashion show where I presented my collection of accessories even. I learned a lot in this time. Things I like, things I never want to do and things I can't wait to dive into.
I've now begun dreaming of traveling and starting to look into the areas of the world I want to go. Where I want to take my kids and where I want to backpack with my friends. It's important to travel. The more places you go, the more you learn and the more your world opens to new possibilities. It's a wonderful gift to give yourself.
I'm also working on going to Haiti to share my knowledge teaching the techniques I know. The people need help in earning money not only to live day to day, but to afford schooling for their children. It is nothing for me to take the time out of my life to help those who really need it. It's my dream to continue on this path of giving and helping wherever I am needed. It's a passion I can't put away.
Also, I have created a path to a career I am pretty darn sure is going to launch me forward even more. I will be starting my second company in August called Smart Party. An idea that I have been bouncing around in my head for about two years now. Basics are I present several ideas for parties based around famous artist or art movements. I teach the history and show the people how to create in the same manners. It's one of my passions to teach in my own way and with my own rules. I have taught in college and at art fairs, but I wanted to come up with something that would work with my schedule and three children. That's how I got here. Educate, Empower and Create. What more could I possibly do that is more fun than this? Seriously?
So, that leap of faith I took two years is now coming full circle and I am hopeful to teach what I love while continuing my career as an accessory and intimate apparel artist. I have one life to live. This is my choice and I love it.